Back in Focus

January 13, 2010

Counting Weight Watchers points is a task. Like all tasks, it gets tiresome and boring.

The first sign that the butter is slipping off the bread is when you stop entering the food you eat into your food diary. In Bunny’s case, the food diary is online, but it doesn’t matter whether you keep your diary with a software program, on an official form, in a little memo pad, or in lipstick on the wall of your house.

It’s the process that counts.

And ultimately it doesn’t really matter if you write down exactly what you ate, either. Bunny’s morning shake can be entered as “shake” and the points count. She used to write down every single ingredient and their amounts, and that got old fast. Nobody ever sees her diary. “Shake” is just fine.

It’s no big deal if she counts the number of servings of each kind of food she has consumed, either. There’s a place to mark down how many fruits you have eaten that day, how many protein servings, whether you’ve gotten in your daily dose of olive oil, and how much water you’ve chugged down. Even whether you took your vitamin. Stupidly, there’s a place to count your servings of veggies. The vast majority of veggies are unlimited on the Weight Watchers plan, so this seems silly to Bunny. She never bothers with that. And that works fine for her.

What is important, at least in Bunny’s case, is the process. She is successful when she is engaged. Fully conscious of what she is eating. This is 4 points. This is 1 point. I should order this instead of that, hold the whatever and put the do-dads on the side, please.

She starts to slip out of the habit when she gets lazy and stops keeping her food diary. It’s a task. It’s just another thing she has to do every day. Like putting gas in the car. Scooping out the kitty box. Unloading the dishwasher.

If she didn’t have to do those things, she wouldn’t. Same goes for entering what she eats in the food diary.

But it’s a matter of focus. Being fully conscious and aware of what she’s eating and becoming accountable.

And that most definitely does matter.

The slide begins when she starts eating without keeping track, at least in her mind.

She knows that if she stays within her point count, she’s successful.

She knows that she can go over her point count and still be successful. That leads her to just kinda sorta figure that she’s within a reasonably safe range, and skip the entry. THAT eventually leads her to stop thinking about how many points she’s consuming. THAT leads us to where we were the day before yesterday.

The good news is that Bunny is back on track. The picture we painted of social shame, physical misery, dread disease and ugly clothes has swayed her.

She is focused, she is engaged, she’s counting her points, and she understands what’s at stake. And she’s fine with it.

She seems to get tangled up and lose focus when she doesn’t know how to count a particular meal, usually at a restaurant. So we gave her a quick fix.

If it’s a reasonable portion of something that’s reasonably in line with what she should be eating, count it as 10 points.

If she ate too much of something ok, or ate some of something not so ok (like a piece of cake), count it as 15 points and move on.

Bunny gets 30 points a day, with an extra 35 points to bail her out during the week.

So Bunny’s back on track. Think good thoughts.

And thanks for reading. You’re helping to keep Bunny motivated. She doesn’t want to fail the nice people who take the time and effort to follow her journey.

Let’s keep the pressure on!

Where do we start?

September 2, 2009

Bunny lost of a lot of weight with Weight Watchers, and then later with the Adkins diet. 

Recently, she tried Weight Watchers Online. That was a great idea, she thought, because she works long hours, and hubby keeps her hopping from this event to that event when she’s not working. That was, as they say, an Epic Fail because Bunny can’t be trusted. Bunny needs accountability. She needs to be checked up on, either by regular weigh-ins at the doctor, or perhaps by someone who is following her around, writing down every bite she takes, every move she makes, onto a blog for the world to see. 🙂

She needs to weigh herself once a week. She doesn’t own a scale, so that means either the doctor or the gym. She’s not ready to deal with her nag of a doctor yet, and she should go to the gym anyway, so that’s the preliminary plan.

But first, she must change her mindset and control what she eats. There’s nothing mystical about losing weight. You burn more than you consume.

Bunny’s challenge has always been that the voices in her head take over, and she eats things she shouldn’t eat, and more than she should eat. She’s sure this is an eating disorder of some kind, she’s definitely an emotional eater, but she can lose weight quite successfully if she can stay in control of her head, and not let it fall under the control of whatever nasty little fat-loving demon resides in the deepest recesses of her psyche.

So, we start with making healthy choices and going to the gym.